Eyes Wide Shut

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The eyes are useless when the mind is blind.

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PHASES 1 AND 2 OF THE NARCISSISTIC BOND

When things slowly started to change, little did I know was experiencing the end of the first phase of the psychopathic / narcissistic relationship, what nearly everyone courted by someone with antisocial traits experiences initially that gets them hooked: idealization as it’s often defined, and also referred to as “love bombing.”

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When you first meet the narcissist, he spends a lot of time listening, reflecting, and mirroring:

Listening to what you say (to discover what your needs and wants are)

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Reflecting (figuring out what he can offer you back that you truly need and want), and

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Mirroring (mirroring your body language, repeating back to you what you are saying,‘active’ listening skills; he’s giving you yourself as a mate – that’s why you think you’ve met someone that truly “fits” you so well, because he’s merely providing you with a reflection of yourself).

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Only you don’t realize he’s doing this. You interpret this to mean he’s falling in love with you. But in reality it’s more like he’s sizing up his prey…

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The idealization phase in a psychopathic / narcissistic relationship will be unlike anything you’ve ever experienced. You will be swept off of your feet, lost in a passionate fantasy with someone who excites you on every level: emotionally, spiritually, and sexually. They will be the first thing on your mind when you wake up in the morning, waiting for their cheerful, funny texts to start your day. You will quickly find yourself planning a future with them—forgetting about the dull realities of life. None of that matters anymore. They’re the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.

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While all of this is going on in your heart, their thoughts are occupied by something else entirely: “Good. It’s working.” Narcissists never truly feel the things they display. They’re observing you, mirroring your every emotion and pretending to ride this high with you.

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Idealization is the first step in their grooming process. Also known as love-bombing, it quickly breaks down your guard, unlocks your heart, and modifies your brain chemicals to become addicted to the pleasure centers firing away. The excessive flattery and compliments play on your deepest vanities and insecurities—qualities you likely don’t even know you possess.imageThey will feed you constant praise & attention through your phone, texts, and email inbox. Within a matter of weeks, the two of you will have your own set of inside jokes, pet names, and cute songs. Looking back, you see how insane the whole thing was. But when you’re in the middle of it, you can’t even imagine life without them. So how do they do it?   The narcissist uses a variety of brainwashing techniques to win you over:

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They will emphasize six major points during the idealize process:

1. “We have so much in common”

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We see the world the same way. We have the same sense of humor. We’re both so , constantly helping out our friends & family members. We are perfect for each other.

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They repeatedly drill these points home, often times even going so far as to say: “we’re practically the same person.” They spend most of the idealize phase listening to you and excitingly responding that they feel the same way. You will eventually come to think that they’re the only person you’ll ever meet who’s so similar to you. And you’re right. Because it is flat-out impossible (and creepy) for two people to be identical in every way.

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Normal people have differences. It’s what makes life interesting. But narcissists and narcissists can skip this complication because they don’t have an identity. They do not have a sense of self. They don’t have life experiences that shape their needs, insecurities, and fantasies. Instead, they steal yours. Like a chameleon, they will transform every part of their personality to become your perfect match.

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2. “We have the same hopes and dreams”

The narcissist will consume your present life, but they will also take over your future. In order to raise the stakes in the relationship, they will make many long-term promises.

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This ensures that you are highly invested in the relationship. After all, who wants to stick around for a romance that has no potential future? The narcissist takes this a step further, quickly discussing major life events like marriage and moving in together. These are decisions that typically take years in a healthy relationship. But you don’t need all that time. You already know you’ll be spending the rest of your life with them.imageIf you’ve always dreamed of a family and kids, they will fit that role perfectly. If you want to start a business, they will be your right-hand man/woman. If you’re in an unhappy marriage, they will have a plan ready to replace your spouse. You will notice that these plans always seem to involve some sort of sacrifice on your end—never theirs.

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3. “We share the same insecurities”

They will never actually say this, of course. But narcissists can sniff out vulnerabilities in a second. They will mirror your insecurities to drive up your sympathy—so that you attempt to heal their problems with the same care you might hope to receive yourself.

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Empathetic people are not attracted to blatant butt-kissing and over confidence. You’re attracted to the innocent, sympathetic person. This increases exponentially when you also recognize their insecurities as your own. You see someone feeling inferior, and you believe that you know how to make them feel better.

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The narcissist is like no one else, because they genuinely seem to adore all of your efforts. They compares you to past exes, idealizing you above everyone else. It’s as if all of your energies finally have a purpose, after likely being frustrated with the unending, not-so-appreciative complaints of others. If you perceive the narcissist in a sympathetic light, your natural instincts kick in, and you do everything you can to prove how much you care. Narcissists see insecurities in a very different way—a tool for manipulation and control. Their childlike “baby” routine is a perfect way to mask these intentions.

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4. “You are beautiful”

Narcissists are obsessed with the way you look. You will never meet another human being who comments so frequently on your clothes, your hair, your skin, your pictures, or whatever other superficial quality they choose to focus on that day.

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At first, these feel like compliments. They can’t believe how beautiful or handsome you are—they don’t even feel worthy of being your partner. They walk around the park and can’t find a person more attractive than you (how this is a compliment, I’m not quite sure).  Going along with the above point about insecurities, you begin to return all of this flattery. You want to make sure they feel adequate—that they understand how attractive you think they are. And that’s what they’re aiming for. By showering you with compliments, they know they can expect the adoration to rebound shortly.

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Suddenly, they become very comfortable sharing photos of themselves with you. Your relationship becomes an unending exchange of praise and approval.You begin to place your self-esteem into their words, because they are so reliably positive. You can actually feel yourself glowing. Your body goes through changes as your confidence rises with their every word. You spend more and more time improving your appearance to keep them impressed.imageimage

5. “I’ve never felt this way in my life”

This is where the comparisons begin. They hold you in high regard, far above all of their other relationships. They explain—in detail—every one of the reasons you are better than their exes. They can’t remember the last time they’ve been this happy.

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You will constantly hear sweeping declarations like, “I can’t believe how lucky I am.” Statements like these play on your innate desire to make others happy. They convince you that you’re providing them with a special sort of joy, something that they cannot find in anyone else. This becomes a point of pride for you—knowing that you are the one they want, despite all of their other admirers.

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The narcissist will refer to you as “perfect” and “flawless”, which becomes an overwhelming source of cognitive dissonance when the words inevitably change to “crazy” and “jealous”. As you work through these memories, remember that their compliments were always shallow and calculated. They do it with everyone. For each target, the idealize phase will be different. However, one thing remains true throughout each relationship: they really have “never felt this way” in their life. Narcissists do not actually feel the love and happiness that they so frequently proclaim. They oscillate between contempt, envy, and boredom. Nothing more.

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6. “We are soul mates”

Narcissists love the idea of soul mates. It implies something different than love. It says that there are higher powers at work. That you are meant to be together.

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It means that they consume your entire being—mind and body alike. It creates a psychic bond that lasts long after the relationship has ended.

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Perhaps there is a small part in all of us that longs for a soul mate. The perfect person to complete our lives. Someone with whom we can share everything—a lover and a best friend.

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And there is nothing wrong with that. I cannot stress this point enough. Narcissists will manipulate your dreams and fantasies, but that does not make them weaknesses. After being discarded by a narcissist, many survivors denounce everything about their past life, raising a permanent guard to protect themselves from more abuse.imageThis is the honeymoon phase, and is likely the greatest high a person will ever experience… sadly enough;because it’s about to end, and you’ll never come anywhere close to feeling this good again in your entire life.

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imageimageEarly on in the relationship, the psychopath or narcissist will say “I love you,” and does so continuously. What he actually is saying is, “Do you love me?” He needs you to love him, as when you do, you are rendered “weak.”

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The narcissist only “loves” but one thing:

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Mirror, mirror, on the wall: who’s the most handsome one of all?

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He is. Or so he believes.image

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He thinks he’s bigger than life…

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And thus begins the devaluation phase in the narcissistic relationship, and this is when you’re left wondering why you were so abruptly thrust off the pedestal. The narcissist will suddenly start to blow hot and cold, criticizing you, covertly and overtly putting you down, comparing you to others, stonewalling you, emotionally withdrawing from you and giving you the silent treatment when you’ve failed to meet their extreme “standards.” Since the “hot” aspect of this phase relies on intermittent reinforcement in which the narcissist gives you inconsistent spurts of the idealization phase throughout, you become convinced that perhaps you are at fault and you can “control” the narcissist’s reactions.

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You are mislead into thinking that if you just learn not to be so “needy” or “clingy,” the narcissist will reward you with the loving behavior he or she demonstrated in the beginning. These are words that narcissists often use to demean victims when abuse victims mourn the loss of the idealization phase or react normally to being provoked. It’s a way to maintain control over your legitimate emotional reactions to their stonewalling, emotional withdrawal and inconsistency.

Unfortunately, it is during the devaluation phase that a narcissist’s true self shows itself. You have to understand that the man or woman in the beginning of the relationship never truly existed. The true colors are only now beginning to show, so it will be a struggle as you attempt to reconcile the image that the narcissist presented to you with his or her current behavior. Confusion and uncertainty set in… and the target tries doing all they can to fix the relationship.

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Even though the narcissist can be quite possessive and jealous over you, since he or she views you as an object and a source of narcissistic supply, the narcissist is prone to projecting this behavior onto you.

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The narcissist makes you seem like the needy one as you react to his or her withdrawal and withholding patterns even though the expectations of frequent contact were established early on in the relationship by the narcissist himself.

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He was always wearing a mask.

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I just never realized the real person hidden behind was a monster.

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I watched it all transpire with my own eyes – only I was too blind and naive to recognize it.

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Unfortunately I didn’t know people had the potential for this sort of evil within them; soon my eyes, and mind, would be forced to view the world in a way I never envisioned. And it wasn’t what I bargained for…

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Wow, Nicole: I was not expecting that under the mask. Your mask should stay on most definitely, your one of the few that it makes a world of difference for!  I never would have guessed it!

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EYES

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SHUT. 

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